You are not like the other children

You are not like the other children.
Enjoy and revel in your victories and achievements, because God has chosen to bless you in this way.
You can't allow other's envy of who you are make you regret your achievements and blessings.
We are blessed in different ways, to do different things.
So, why are you so worried that you are blessed and others not?
It's your time to be blessed.
You do deserve it, because you are you, and you are not like the other children.
Let them find their way and their time.
Now is your time.
Enjoy it.
Be humble as you revel in it.

Why are you doing it?

There's been a lot of why's in my life these days. Like, a lot!

I've recently decided to start posting again on this blog and on social media. It's interesting for me to start posting the things that I have learned, the thoughts that I think are profound, because of how I see myself in the world. I always think - someone will say it... someone will do it... this is important and of course someone will say it.... of course someone will ensure it gets done. And you know what, surprisingly for me - no-one does. And I do search for those who say and do these things that I think are vital for our progress as human beings to becoming who we really are.

A friend of mine that I loved and still love, accused me of being selfish with myself. My sisters also told me that I am selfish to think that I can just exit in my little corner, and to think that I won't be missed. I guess it's part and parcel of working in the harsh industry that I work in, where you are constantly told you are replaceable. But, you know what? You are not replaceable. Don't let them tell you you are because you are not replaceable. God has gifted you with the heart he has, the soul he has, and the eyes he has so that you can bring and shine that special light of who you are into the world. Yes, of course they can find someone else to do the job, of course they can. But, they will never find another you.

I keep wondering why I am posting all these things I am posting. Because I have the habit of sermonising - lol! I do tend to try to build with all that I say and do, be a builder, be a lover, and be the change that I want to see. And you know, people post the most amazing things on social media. Things that at your darkest or lowest, you come across and you feel reassured, and blessed, and hopeful again, because somehow what they have posted speaks to the core of your being and your situations.

I have started posting again, and I cannot help but wonder why I suddenly feel the need to start this discourse again. Because, sometimes your own personal journey allows you such deep and profound realisation that they change how you view the world. I have had to many of those recently. And to tell the truth, I do not choose to be selfish about them anymore.

I am choosing to share, with the hope that whoever reads these posts will be deeply comforted. Because the truths of life are not meant to be whispered in the darkness, they are meant to be screamed from the mountain tops so that whomsoever has ears can hear and be moved.

When to ask why...

It's been an interesting few years, where I have faced many challenges. Challenges that make pursuing a dream seem impossible. It is important to have a vision for your life, and to seek to understand your life purpose. Without that understanding life can seem impossible and not worth living.

I've come to understand through many life events, that sometimes it is important to ask why. But, not just ask why is this happening to me, but to ask why should it happen the way it is happening.

We often cry, and seethe and fume at a turn of life events. And I guess I have been blessed with the ability to stand outside my own life and it's events and look at them objectively, through the eyes of spirit. Why are you seething, and shouting, and blaming life? God and "his" infinite wisdom understands why. Rather ask why is God saying no. Why would God say no when you feel you deserve something, some blessing? God would say no if it's not the right time. And often because if you are in line with your truth, and your aim is for the greater good, you are with the wrong people, and attempting something through the wrong channels.

So... Rather ask - what is the aim with this project or relationship or job that I am pursuing? And why is God saying no to this project or relationship or job, with these people, at this time? That is the most important question. Why is God saying no?

You may have no idea what you have been saved from until much later. But, trust me, you are being saved from something. So, keep at it, and seek other ways, because perhaps the channel you are pursuing this dream through is not the one that can provide you with what you actually need to grow in spirit, mind and heart.

Faith sometimes means allowing the process of life to protect you, and allowing it to bring only good things to you. And whatever it is that is making you so sad, or so angry, may not bring you good things. So, be thankful for the no - it may just save your dreams.

Life is a journey to becoming...

Life is a journey to becoming who we really are. Sometimes we realise that right from the beginning, sometimes it takes us a while to even recognise that that is what we are doing. Becoming who we really are.

And yet, there are others of us who think life is about glorifying our faults and lauding them over others as the excuses for why we behave so hatefully. We cling to our shyness, or our arrogance, or our insanity, or our fear because we think that that is who we are. How can that be who you are? Yes, your flaws are what make you who you are, but not the negative ones that cut you off from others, or the ones that offend others. Remember that we release our own blessings when we bless others with joy in our presence.

But, in our journey to becoming we the seek the reflection of who we are. And so we do things repeatedly hoping that someone will notice it. Recognition and acknowledgment is what drives us all...drives us so hard that sometimes we make terrible errors in judgment. So watch your ego, and your need to be praised as "the one who surpasses all others". Watch that this need does not become desperation. Because when it becomes desperation then you and your soul become easy prey to the hyenas of this world. Ayanda Halimana said to me once that every side is recruiting. And you are equally attractive to both sides - good and evil. Desperation makes you vulnerable, because you want someone to come to you and say you are great, you are the chosen one, you are the one we have been waiting for, you are the only one who can speak the truth.

So come right with yourself and God. Know yourself and your weaknesses so that you know when someone is pressing on those. Be aware that a massive battle is afoot and some of us are foot soldiers, others generals...but, we are all important. But, because we are all sleeping through our arrogance and ego seeking acknowledgment and praise, we are failing to see the dark side prepare for battle. Ego is the most dangerous force on God's earth. In God's universe. It is what caused the fall of Lucifer. Ego. The need to be praised and called chosen and special, the one without whom it - whatever "it" is to you - cannot be realized.

Why do you look outside yourself for praise? Why do you look beyond God for acknowledgment? Why do you make what others say about you so important? People will talk, and they will say what they must being who they are...That's how they see life. They cannot help it unless they try, and if they won't try why does it have to matter to you. How they see you doesn't have to define you. You define you. You choose everyday...every moment of everyday...with every action, every word and every thought about yourself and the world you define you. So, choose who you are.

Be humble enough to allow others their faults, because these faults are what makes them special. Your faults are what make you special. Don't cling to the ones that destroy your life, and praise yourself for the flaws that make others fear, loathe and avoid you. The purpose of you realising some of your flaws is to overcome you so that you can become who you are really meant to be.

Life is a journey to becoming who you really are. This is why you change the more you learn. But, with everything you learn, understand why you need to learn that lesson, so that you can understand what it is you are supposed to release and let go of in order to become more of who you are supposed to be.

But, in all this just know who you are in God's eyes. He made you, he knows you, he knows who you really are...and when you forget just ask God to help you re-member who just you are. Even when we think we know, he knows better for he really sees you.

Just always know that you are God's special child, that he will never forsake you. And that no matter what, you can find your way back to him if you really repent and repeal all the evil thoughts, actions and manners that you have adopted. He knows above all others that you are good, that you are important, that you are truly special.

No matter what they say: You are special.

The need to be all things

I've just come to the realisation that i need to be all things - the hero, the mother, the counselor, the best friend, the loved daughter, the most valued employee. And that this need to be all things is tripping me up, because then i am failing to recognise what is really important and what i need to be doing.

It may be a warning to you my friends that sometimes it isn't important to be all things, but to excel at what you are supposed to be. And therefore the key is in finding out who and what you are supposed to be.

This realisation came because I've just come through a very difficult week where i realised that i am always being courted. And that i have come to loathe this courtship dance. I no longer want to be courted, and i pray that God will just keep away from me all these people who keep courting me. But, i guess the reason for this endless courting is that i want to be right. I needed God to step up for me and say - this is my child, and i have sanctioned her actions. And so these people see my need to belong to the righteous, some are good some are evil, but all want me for their side. And i am just not sure that i want to belong to any side as every side is self-righteous and i have come to loathe self-righteousness - even my own.

but, it is this desire to be right, this burning need to be sanctioned by God that led me to what occurred this last week. And i am not pleased, as once again i was left with egg on my face. And i wonder still - what now? I need some time for introspection and readjustment and i pray that God will be with me as i come to release this need. Because in this world where evil is on the rise and is out courting this ache to be God's special child is dangerous.

And this is a warning to all those servants of the darkness - i will not be conquered or won by you. God is still on my side, and i am vigilant. I hope you my friends are also vigilant because the dark side is rising and we need to be really sure that the side we have chosen is the right one. So, be blessed with the light of the self-knowledge to discern what is good and what is evil.

Be safe.

THE TROUBLE WITH BEING HUMAN

THE TROUBLE WITH BEING HUMAN

The trouble with being human is that we are human, and we all often fail to accept this about ourselves and others. We expect others to be more than what we are, to be better than what we are, and when they fail we judge them as inferior, because they were human. Yet, we fail to realise that the same way we view others, they view us. And even with this article, and what I feel driven to say, I am still being human and judgmental, and placing my understanding above others, and elevating myself to a level higher than others.

This is the truth as I know it: People must do what they must at any given moment. We often fail to understand that based on the information you have, and who you are, you can only do what you must in any given situation. And the truth is that this doesn’t always suit others, and in fact may be harmful to them. If we all came from this understanding the world would not be as it is.

This is the truth as I know it: People are basically greedy. That is why we are always striving for more – more love, more happiness, more material wealth, more health. We can never have enough. And the truth is, in this earnest endeavour that is part of the trouble with being human we often disadvantage others and rob them of their God-given birth-rights. In this endeavour we are blinded by narcissism and step on whomever we have to to get what we want. Why? People must do what they must at any given moment. Often we fail to check this greed, or acknowledge it enough to be able to manage it, leading to great unhappiness. Unchecked greed is marauding and self-serving, and is the destruction of any society. Yet, greed is part of the trouble with being human, and it is completely un-acknowledged.

This is the truth as I know it: People are basically selfish. We think only of ourselves at any given moment, in any given situation – we have to, it is in our make-up. What I know for sure is that if you have no conception of who you are and what you are meant to do with your life in order to progress on to the next stage of re-membering, your selfishness will disadvantage those around you. Only when one is being truly selfish, can one please others. Think about it, when you know who you are, what you need to do to be happy, it is easier to be honest with others, treat them better, and do better because your goal is clear. Uncertainty is poison, because you vacillate between decisions, making others uncomfortable and miserable as they do not know where they stand with you, or what you mean, or what you intend, therefore uncertainty drives misery. But, when you acknowledge that you are here for your own selfish reasons – i.e. to re-member that you are God; it is easy to be giving, to be accepting, to be discerning, to be clear in intent, action and word leading to happiness around you because those around you know where they stand.

This is the truth as I know it: People are basically good. It doesn’t matter what label you place on another, this is the truth. Even if someone hates you, wants to destroy you, makes your life a living misery, this person is good to the ones that they love and hang out with. Even the most evil person is good to someone. Therefore people are basically good when it serves them, Why? Because people are basically selfish.

So, given these truths, the question then becomes: Why then is the world in the shape that it is in? Well, all these basic facts about humanity are completely unacknowledged and so run amuck, unchecked. I believe that denial is the biggest sin of all, in fact if the word existed I would say un-acknowledgement is the biggest sin of all. So, these truths as I know them are un-acknowledged and become a destructive force because they are not controlled and managed. Control and in fact self-control is the biggest virtue, it is Godly to be controlled, to control yourself – your selfishness and your greed, so that when you must do what you must, you take into account the greater good and then live up to that within you that is God. When you acknowledge that you are basically greedy it means you go out seeking the material, physical, emotional, spiritual abundance that is your birthright as God’s child. And in seeking, realise that you may require these in abundance, but check your selfishness by realising that there is enough, and therefore endeavouring to share with others by taking only what is yours.

Greed is the manifestation of a lack of belief that God can provide for us all, exactly what each individual really needs. And so often we go out seeking something that isn’t what we really need, but what we have been told is what we really need, or what we saw that others really need, and because it is not what we really need, we take more than our fair share in that it isn’t even our share at all, but someone else’s, and are then exposed as greedy. This is why it is important to know who you are and what you need to do to fulfil the requirements of your life, so that when you go out to fulfil your selfish interests you are able to be good, because you are acting in sync with what your soul needs to re-member.

So, let us acknowledge ourselves, and see each other through God’s eyes and acknowledge that we must do what we must – be selfish, be greedy; so that we can be good and so begin to re-member that we are God.

What i know for sure.

1. We all have choices. These choices are often the opportunity we are given to change our lives. It is important to know what the choices on offer are, to consider the outcomes that they bring, to consider the outcome you want, and to make the choice that best suites your plan. Our lives are what they are because we chose that they will be that way. Don't be the victim of a life lived through choices you refused to partcipate in, be an active participant in your life - make a choice. Be aware of the life you live, so that you may live the life you want.
2. There is good in all of us. We all have good in us, but some of us just refuse to allow it to be the trait about ourselves that others experience first. Others of us believe that we are evil and there is no hope for redemption. But, being good is an active human trait, it must be chosen and it must be practiced. You choose to be good and you choose what this means, and you act it out through the way you behave to others and to yourself. We choose who we are, so if you are evil it because you choose; if you are good it is because you choose.
3. There is greatness in all of us. Unfortunately some of us are so busy looking at the 'other' - our friend, or sister, or brother, colleague etc - that we fail to see what greatness is ours. We are not the same, we are not gifted the same, we are not gifted to achieve the same thing, in the same field, in the same way. Self-exploration and self-knowledge is important, because this introspection allows you to understand where your gifts lie, to explore and grow them and realise them in the physical plain. So, stop looking at others and look at yourself, and focus on what you can do for you, through your gifts.
4. We are here to re-member who we really are. We are here to remember that we are God, that is the whole purpose of life. Think back to the times when you experienced ecstatic happiness and what this was about, it was probably when you felt loved and appreciated and part of a bigger whole than who you are. This my friend is God; for he is more than who we are, is true love – i.e. unjudgmental, accepting, encouraging, joyful.
5. It's all you. You create the reality you wish by accepting it as truth. So, choose only the outcome you seek, accept only the outcome you seek, see only the outcome you seek.